Things are both different and the same.
I've started a teeny fraction of the things I need to do in the wake of your departure. It seems to be a lot of paperwork. I did discover that I can no longer pull your credit report... do you think that means you'll quit getting credit card offers in the mail? Let's hope so.
Spring has sprung, and today makes it official. We've planted the spring garden, and it's weird to think I won't be able to rush in and tell you when the first shoots come up.
In a way, I've been preparing for this for the past 3 years. You gradually were unable to do yard work, give me a hug, help in the kitchen, help with the girls... and in the last few months, you were even turning over your computer work to me.
But I told you this before, and (so far) I've been right. The single biggest thing I miss is simply talking to you. Telling you about my day, about the girls, about the cool thing I read. When you were feeling low, and said you had no purpose, I said that you were wrong... that the best part of my day was sharing it with you. I know that was no substitute for your life before ALS, but it still meant the world to me.
So, babe, today I straightened up the house, and did some paperwork. Then Louise and I went to town, and had lunch at the Palms with Daddy. I had the fish tacos, which were pretty good, but I don't know if I'd get them again. Then we went to Kroger, where Louise threw a fit because I wouldn't let her get candy. So I was the mom with the screaming child that everyone was staring at, fun times. Cora had a good day at school, and said she did some activity involving rectangles in gym... that narrows it down. It has been rainy and dreary, so we are watching Beauty and the Beast now. Steak and roast potatoes for dinner! I know you would enjoy that!
I love you, babe. And I miss you.